Thursday, June 26, 2008

To Roth or not to Roth

Five months ago, Scott and I bought tickets to this awesome music festival, Rothbury.  When we purchased these tickets we had no idea what the future held for us.  Now, one week before the festival, I don't know if I want to go anymore.  Up until 2 weeks ago, I was counting down the days. I was so excited I couldn't think of much else.  But now. . .  not so much.  Its weird.  I know how badly I wanted to go, but now I just don't want to.  I would rather go up to the cottage and do nothing.  I'll probably regret it if I don't go.  I mean, I am a huge DMB fan, and this is going to be an incredible concert.  But on the other hand I just don't want to put up with the stress of going.  The stress of camping with 50,000 others on an open field, the stress of no sleep for 4 nights, the headache of having to buy overpriced food and water. . .  I feel really bad about this.  It like I am torn.  Pre diagnosed Steph is saying "GO!  This will be the last time you will be able to do anything like this!"  Post diagnosed Steph is saying "Just go up to the cottage and chill.  You have enough stress in you life without adding this in."
And the debate goes on. . .


aunt colleen said...

It's a lot.You've been making a lot of decisions - why wouldn't you be able to do something like this again? Honoring where you are through this is part of the journey. Letting yourself relax and have an enjoyable time where you can't think of much else is cool if you are okay with you have to go all 4 nights? What about a condensed version with the cottage after? I'm all about compromise.
What is DMB? Also no hip aunt.
Love you, Say Boo to Scott.

Anonymous said...

could you roth for maybe a day or two perhaps? I think that you should try to go see the band/bands that you really wanted to see and then peace on outta there! Sounds like you are riding the fence on this one, and although the scene at the festival will most likely be pretty wild, the music might make you feel like a new person. "music is medicine to the mind". just a thought.
love, cousin nick